She Made A Difference

“What is Love?” Well that’s a difficult question to give an answer for. It’s not something that you can explain with an example nor teach in a practical way, you need to be in love to understand love. Hmmm so I replied saying “Love is a beautiful feeling, Love is something divine and godly”, I guess that sounded like an abstract to her, so she again asked me “I didn’t understand what you mean, tell me clearly what is Love.”It was always a challenge and difficulty for me to explain certain things to her, and this is one of the major things. I tried my best to explain her but she was not convinced with my answers. She was sitting exactly in front of me looking directly into my eyes and expecting a reply. I need to accept the fact that I’m not that good in explaining love unlike this Balamechanical. I was trying hard to search an answer for her question, but I couldn’t. Before I could give some other answer, she retorted back “Do you Love Me?” this one was so easy for me to answer “Of course I do Sweetheart, I Love you more than anybody in this world.” Her face lightened up and I could see a blissful smile on her face. I thought that might have answered her question, but it wasn’t. “If you do so, can you prove it?” Well I really need to think of something to answer her, else surrender. Hmmm I got an idea. “Sweetheart time is already 5, and we need to start to our favorite destination.” Without asking one more question she immediately got ready and we headed towards our favorite spot.
We reached our place. This was one of god’s greatest creation and a place where anyone would love to enjoy. Everyone becomes kid once they come here, of course me too. Many refer this place as ‘heaven for Kids’, ‘Relaxation point for students and workers’, ‘Romantic spot for lovers’ and many more, but on whole everyone knows this place as ‘Beach’. We both went into the beach and started walking in barefoot on the sands. We walked for a while and sat at a place away from the shore. There were some little kids playing in sand, she was admiring them. “I’ll play with those kids for while; in the meantime find out an answer for my question.” I thought she is not going to leave me until I give her a proper answer. I started to think, how I can explain my sweetheart about love. It was almost 6 years back, when I realized what love is, and now I’m in a position to show it. Life was beautiful at that time, I got everything needed and there was not even one instance where I could complain about life. I did my masters in business from a reputed university and joined a company. I really loved the work over there and was so much committed to it. After 4 years, I thought its better for me to have a change and I shifted to this new company in which I’m currently working.
The job over here was easy for me; I was made to work in team of 8 and moreover there were some couple of good looking girls. The working environment over here was on par with my old company. This is where I met my first sweetheart. She was as well working in the same team. She was one of the nicest and soft spoken girls on the floor. She always used to keep everyone within limits and that’s why it was quite hard for me to get close with her. I sometimes used to wait for her to complete her work and then walk along with her till the bus stand. She always used to give a precise reply and never get herself engaged in any kind of talks or arguments. I was exactly opposite to her, I was a chatter box and I always keep people engaged with my talks except her. There was an audit which has to be prepared from our team and we both were involved in that work. I felt so lucky, and thought now that she has to speak with me frequently and I can get to know her better. But everything was on the opposite side; she spoke to me only when necessary and that too hardly in a day.
It’s been only 7 days since I had worked with her, but she had a huge impact on me. I was completely changed in these 7 days, I hardly spoke to anyone without any reason, my lunch time and break time talks got completely reduced and people even started thinking that I was on leave. I started replying to certain things by just giving a smile in return rather than opening my mouth. This was one of her character to reply back with a smile, but I was affected by it big time. I really wanted to break open from that impact which was a bit hard for me. I started almost reflecting all her actions which was something unusual for me. Well this is where I realized that I was in love, she didn’t try to change me, she never asked me nor she won’t, but she was of something which had a huge impact on me and I felt that impact as love which might sound something weird but it is true. When you are in love with someone, you try to do certain things which they do, especially the way they speak, laugh, and even their looks, that’s what this silent killer had done to me. One evening it got so late and she had no other choice apart from coming with me in my bike after big time pleading.
I guess this is one of the incident which I felt shouldn’t have happened. She invited me in and offered a cup of tea. I heard some sound from the other room and she immediately rushed to the room and came back with a kid in her hand. All my dreams got shattered that very moment. I didn’t even speak a word to her and walked off from her place. The next day I asked one of my colleagues about her, and my doubts got confirmed and clarified. They said she was married and had a kid. I was cursing myself for having feelings towards her. I started to maintain a distance with her which she noticed, but didn’t care much about it. That Friday we had a party and everyone was asked to come with their family. I was so curious to see her husband and wanted to meet that lucky person. But to everyone’s surprise she came only with her kid. There were hardly people who asked about her husband, but this one was something killing me. No one had seen her husband in these two years and that weekend I was only thinking about it. On Monday I decided to ask about her personal life. I took her to the canteen and started asking her. I was not sure whether anyone would have seen her speak so much, that day she spoke to me for more than an hour and I couldn’t believe my ears.
After that evening, it took me almost seven days to recover back, she was still the same in office, but I was completely taken aback after speaking with her. These seven days was a rough phase in my life and I need to take a major decision in my life. I had made my decision of marrying her and she was completely shocked on my decision. We got married on an auspicious day and got moved to a new apartment with our only daughter. Life was really so beautiful for me especially after our marriage. Every Saturday evening I used to take both of my sweethearts to beach and she used to rest her head on my shoulder and admire our little sweetheart playing. She used to say that she was never of the impression that I would marry her, but I proved her wrong. I should say I didn’t had enough time to love her the way I expected before marriage, but I’m showering all my love to her on a sharing basis, since I need to show the same amount to our little sweetheart. She loved me especially for the way I’m taking care of our little sweetheart. It all just happened in a flash and one day she completely rested her head on my shoulders and departed from us.
It’s been almost 4 years since she passed, but still every Saturday I used to take my little sweetheart to the beach and even feel that my darling is sitting next to me resting her head on my shoulder. I guess she is almost tired of playing now and she came back running to me sat next to me resting her head on my shoulder like her mom. “Dad, did you got the answer?” she asked me. I smiled and replied back “Yes Darling, It’s your Mom.” Tears ran down those innocent cheeks, as I wiped it and kissed her. Of course she got the answer and I’m right, there can’t be a better person than her. I was always blessed with everything in life, perhaps that’s the reason why god has cursed me this time. I enjoyed every moment of life in those two years with her. There are only few people who make a difference in our life; she was exactly of that type. The first seven days she created a huge impact by hardly speaking to me, the second set of seven days she again left an even bigger impact by talking to me that evening. I couldn’t control my tears when she told she was sterile, and no one would be ready to marry her. But for me my love towards her and her character was more than enough. She was one of god’s best creations on earth, maybe that’s why he called her back so soon. She doesn’t deserve this; sometimes I wonder why god created some people like this, whether it is to make a difference in someone’s life? She created a huge difference in our little sweetheart’s life by adopting her as daughter. She felt the motherly feeling after adopting this little angel and started carrying on her life on her own. I really doubt whether I would have even given a thought like this if I had similar problem. Wish I had a few more years with her.