A Perfect Stranger

It’s not quite often; we get to see some known faces in a train. Everyone is running as if their legs are tied to some wheels, and I was one among them as well. I used to commute to my workplace by train and I was not certain that I would meet someone who I knew in this train. It’s once in a while people do get to meet someone very important or else someone who had made a difference in their life. It was just 5 pm in the evening and the train was almost flooding with people. I should say that this was the crowd that was bigger than the one we get to see during an india-pakistan cricket match. In amidst of this big crowd I tried to spot a face, whom I felt like had known for ages. It was a pretty face which any one could have easily spotted in that huge crowd. She was sitting in a corner seat without causing much of disturbance to anyone. Of course she did to most of them in the train without her knowledge. I guess everyone would have liked it and obviously they have to, because it’s once in a blue moon miracles happen in our life.
It was during the month of June; I got a job and shifted to this place. I didn’t apply for a job for 9 months since I completed college; I was enjoying my life staying idle at home. It was altogether a different experience for me now, staying away from my parents, doing things on my own and living life almost independently. My first day at work started with training and filling forms. I made some good friends during my training. After a month of vigorous training, I got allocated to a project. This was something completely new for me; of course everyone has to go through this phase. Again there was a training phase, this time about the project and domain. I was trained by different people in the project, of which some were really good and good looking as well. Weekends were really blessings to me; I used to sleep the whole day. Suddenly there is an alarm sound indicating the start of train, almost everyone in the train had earphones plugged in and even a huge explosion would fall only in those deaf ears.
She just closed her eyes and made herself comfortable. I tried my best not to look at her, but my heart didn’t listen. She had a baby’s face, trimmed eyebrow, plain cheeks of course with a space for a dimple when she smiles, rosy lips, and on top of that she had a bhindi on her forehead which was really beautiful to look at. This was just a piece of description that I had made about her. Soon I got involved in my work and started performing really well. I was appreciated for my works and soon got recognized well in the team. If I happen to perform in such a way, there is only one person responsible for it and she was the one who taught me almost every bit of my work. I should say she was the most liked person in my entire project and floor. Everyone used to see her smiling, because there was something unique about her smile. The first women after my mother with whom I was a little bit comfortable was her. Soon we became very good friends.
It takes almost an hour for me to reach to my place and my journey was always boring but not this time. I thank god that at least I have one of his marvelous creation by him to see and admire, even though I avoided to do so. It’s been almost 6 months I’ve started to commute in this train, and not even once I had seen her in this train, perhaps she might be in some other compartment. I always used to make sure that she leaves on time, since she needs to travel quite a distance from office. I was staying close to office so I used to leave late. The best thing according to me in life was email and the office messenger. We used to chat, gossip, and make fun of each other through messenger. Once she reaches home, I used to start messaging her on her number. This was happening for quite a while and I loved it. I used to assign special tone for her calls and messages indicating that she was someone special to me. There were times when I’ve forgot to call my parents but I couldn’t even imagine a day when I’ve not spoken to her. It so happened that once she did not turn up for office for 2 days and I was totally down. I couldn’t reach her on her number which was like a curse to me.
It’s almost 15 minutes since the train had started and suddenly I got a message in my number and as usual it was from the mobile networks new plans. She came to office on the third day and I was in full rage with her. I didn’t even speak to her nor replied to her message for that one whole week. She was really feeling bad and I knew that, but I didn’t realize there should have been something more important that’s why she might have not thought of informing me. I always used to realize my mistakes late and even in this case as well. I called her after a week and we went out. Before I could start with my apology she started crying which was something I felt never should have happened. She said that these 7 days were like hell to her without speaking to me. So far I’ve never thought that I would be someone so important in one’s life, but I’m glad that I did. I had feelings for her but didn’t have the courage to convey. All of a sudden the train stopped on top of a bridge and there was no signal as well, it was a chaos situation there but no one moved since we don’t have any option. There was one such chaos situation in my life and I didn’t know what to do and whom to tell. I don’t whether someone else could have understood me better than her, she made it from my face reaction and she pacified me saying that “I’m going out with my parents to a temple this weekend, don’t worry I’ll pray for you and your family and things will be fine soon.”
I’ve never ever thought about praying for someone apart from my parents, but she was so bighearted. She had always been by my side whenever I need her and she used to remind me of most of the things which I should do. She used to speak with my mom on phone and my mom liked her. I don’t know whether I’m a complete person or not, but I would be definitely incomplete without having her in my life. She always used to make sure that I eat and sleep at the proper time which sometime made me feel that she was on par or one step above my mother. She took care of me like I was her child which sometimes made me remind of my mom. There was problem in the track and it was rectified soon, the train started moving again, but she was sitting there undisturbed. One fine day I asked her out and proposed her, she was so happy and her eyes were filled with tears. She thought if I hadn’t proposed her she would be definitely done that on my birthday, but she was glad that I was so affectionate than her which I believe was not true. From that moment I was everything to her and even a small thing, she used to share with me. I’ve asked her why she was in love with me since she would have definitely got a better person than me, to which she replied that was a girl thing and I won’t be able to understand that.
There had been quite a few talks going in the office that I was so lucky to deserve her, because she was one of the best in terms of character and beauty. She informed her parents about her wish of marrying me to which they accepted. She was the happiest person on earth till that time until a huge explosion came into her life from my words that evening. I’m almost nearing my place; I just have two more stops so thought of looking her continuously till that time. I called her that evening and told that I want to break up with her. She couldn’t believe what she just heard from me and she was completely broke. She was continuously asking me for reasons which I couldn’t give, and said I don’t feel like continuing the relationship with her. She broke into tears and I had no other choice apart from that. I left my job and moved to a different company. To be frank I almost started completely ignoring her. I also made sure that she didn’t know the whereabouts of me.
I sat all alone in my room and was finding answers for the only question which she asked, “why do you want to leave me? “ well the answer was not quite simple, that I could have easily told her, it had been in there for a long time. The only reason which I can find was “love, love and only love”. So far in my life I’ve never seen someone so caring, affectionate and loving towards me. Each and every small act made me love her even more. I felt I was not taken care like this in my life before. She had given her entire love and life to me for which I feel I’m not worth it. I started feeling that I don’t deserve to be someone who is capable for receiving love from her end. I sometimes doubt whether I love her to my fullest because she always used to be better in every possible way. She had always made me feel the best person, but I was under the impression that I was not even the right person for her. It was a struggle for me to cope up with her love to which I came into this conclusion of walking away from her life. One thing I was sure that, she would definitely get a person who would be as loving as she was. I’m almost to reach my destination stop, now she’s awake, there is huge temple that we just passed by and she closed her eyes and prayed for a moment, I knew she definitely would have prayed for me as well. I wish she is blessed for her entire life.