I Gave Up Reading

I was almost nearing my 70’s and this habit of reading books is still alive in me. I never used to categorize any author and irrespective of them I used to read their books. At one point of time there were quite a few favorites, but as and when time went I started reading every other piece of writing, may it be a great author’s master piece or even this balamechanical’s blog. There is a road side book shop near my house and I always used to get a book every Monday, so that I would be make myself occupied the whole week. I would mostly prefer the romantic genre since mine was a love marriage. Some of these books used to contain even love letters written by one to their lover and with a date which would be some 20-25 years ago. I felt these conveyed more romantic feelings than the books. It’s once in a while you would come across these letters or some old newspaper cuttings or either pages from someone’s diary and reading those would be really interesting. And guess what the book which I took this Monday had some four diary pages which caught my attention.
I kept the book aside and almost started reading those pages. It’s really bad to read someone else’s diary, but not in this case, I really doubt whether the person who wrote this exists now. I’ve even filed some of the letters and diary pages which I had come cross and thought there is one more new entry to my collections. Since this was a romantic novel, I felt this should be some love letter and the person who wrote this would have used this book as a present to his girl and had kept the letter in it. I don’t know whether I’m right, but this was indeed a good idea and I’ve tried this to my girl once and it had worked out well. Though the pages were old, the writing was fresh and I always love the smell of these papers. Whenever I read some romantic novel, I used to sleep that night keeping that book on my chest and hugging it. According to me this is called as something “Close To Heart”. So with things in my mind I started reading those diary pages.
It started like this “I think today is the most memorable and beautiful day in my life, after 2 years of continuous struggle Aishu has accepted my love and my happiness has no bound. She was the best in my college and there were already many guys behind her but at last it’s me who won her heart. She had brains and was beautiful as well which was quite a rare sight.” Ha ha ha I laughed and said to myself if she had brains why would she fall in love with you Mr. Romeo. But on the other hand I thought he should be smart like me to woo a girl. Okie let me continue reading “I remember the first day when I proposed her in my college bus stand, to which she walked off without responding, but today she responds to each and every bit of my action. I didn’t change myself for her, which is the best part in me and she liked it and I’m proud of that. Life is like a bed of roses for me without even a single thorn. Then after every other day was a romantic day for me.”
I thought with the amount of patience, especially 2 years is something big and with the confidence this guy our Romeo can do anything. He took me to some of my olden days in the first paragraph itself which made me more curious to continue reading. I’ll see how his romantic days are “I think today is the most beautiful day is my life coz Vaishu has accepted my love and no could come between us.” O oh oh hold on has he written the same thing again or I’m reading the same. No he has written the same thing, but the girl name is “Vaishu” this time. Hmmm let me guess may be of the playboy kind? That sounds interesting let me continue “Vaishu is my most favorite person and she mean the world to me. When I proposed her ..“ oh man this guy is even worse than balamechanical, how many girls and moreover how many times he LOVES? Anyways how many ever times love is always as fresh as an apple kept in a refrigerator. “When I proposed her, she was initially scared of falling in love with me but when she accepted she was even more scared of losing me, but I won’t let her go from my life until my last breath. I don’t know it was just two months of wait but it seemed too long for Me.” hmmm this made me remember Einstein’s law.
“Today is a day I would like to forget in my life, and if given a chance I would try to change things that happened today. Aishu and I had an argument over the friendship she has got and I asked her to avoid talking to those guys whom she thought to be her best friends but they aren’t and this is where everything started. I shouldn’t have behaved like this in public, I slapped Aishu in front of her classmates and she broke down in tears, I never wanted to see her like that. I did that not coz of jealousy rather I was too possessive on her, she didn’t understand that. I tried calling her after that incident but she didn’t want to speak with me, of course she is right and it’s me who behaved so stupid. I was taking too much of control on her which I realized was totally wrong. If you love someone just set them free and if they come back they’ll be all yours. I was so late in realizing this but I love her more than my life. I don’t know whom to tell this, so writing it down in all tears.” I was totally moved on reading this, even though he has two relationships he was sincere in both which was quite exceptional. “Aishu called me after sometime and we patched up again, I was so sorry for the way I behaved with her. I thought of taking her to the beach but couldn’t find my bike.” What a pity Mr. Romeo sorry playboy.
“Today is a day which “Vaishu” and I would never forget in our life.” Jesus Christ! The above paragraph he wants to forget that day and now he doesn’t want to, this guy is more complicated than Algebra I said to myself and continued reading “We had been to the beach for the first time in my bike.” WAIT! Does he got some multiple personality disorder, I guess he has or else he has just added “V” in front of Aishu, but whatever the incidents he has mentioned is kind of crystal clear, I said to myself and continued reading “It was getting dark and we were sitting close to each other, the breeze was so cool and I whispered something in Vaishu’s ear, which she didn’t hear. She asked me to tell that again in her ears, to which I took the chance and kissed her on cheeks.” Well I’ll have to say that he is more romantic with Vaishu than with Aishu. Oh my god, this is something which I never expected to have happen, the third page is completely filled with ink and I couldn’t even make out what he has written. Thank god at least fourth page is clear.
“Today is my wedding and I haven’t seen Aishu as beautiful as ever in her bridal wear.” So this is it at last he married Aishu, then what happened to Vaishu, did he dumped her? Or as guessed it was just a spelling mistake. I can’t take it when someone dumps a girl for the sake of other, well what could be the reason that made him show this kind of injustice towards a girl whom he loved? May be it was just a hanging around relationship or was it just for pleasure. Hmmm wait why I need to jump into a conclusion before completing the whole thing. There are only quite a few lines left, let me read that as well. “Today is my wedding and it’s with my lady love Vaishu.” I guess I would get a heart attack now; he married both of them on a same day? “This is the second best day in my life and hereafter I’m going to spend my entire life with Aishu”. “This is the second best day in my life and hereafter I’m going to spend my entire life with Vaishu.” It’s high time I call an ambulance now. I can’t take it anymore. He has written something specially in bottom of each page and yeah it’s clear only in the last page, let me read that as well. “Don’t you ever dare to read other’s personal diary” but what’s wrong? I asked myself and continued reading “that too the diary of identical twins else you’ll end up in this kind of confusion.” Yes we do use a same dairy.” I should say this was the best shock of my life and after this I’ve never made an attempt to read anyone’s personal letters or dairy. Wait! There is one more page remaining….